Across Syria & Inside Homs: Racing against Time..But without hearing the starting whistle...

I woke up few weeks ago in a different mood; the truth was that an essential 'check point' was infront of me.

I received many calls from friends who knew me for decades, What they said about themselves was exactly what I was going through..

I received some calls from people who knew me for weeks...months…but we do communicate….mentally.

I received an overseas phone call ,informing me how stupid I am, How lonely my life will be ,How good I can act as a ‘loser’…I respect her honesty..her care...and appreciate no further comments about this issue....

I received a flower bouquet with no name attached…thanks.

I had a smashing ‘surprise party’…I am more than thankful to my friends….

3 decades had passed just like this ‘zoeeeeeeeeeee’, just before I realized that something is passing…I was the only one that day hearing all the clock towers of all the cities announcing ‘ heee….sleeping head…another decade had passed’

The hardest thing in life is to face your own self ,to accept it ,to Accept our real capabilities..Always facing others…analyzing them …accepting them…is much easier….
But the universal truth that time is running, regardless of our approval …is uncontrollable…..undefeatable…All of us think in a certain point that we are the center of this world….believe me…we all do, But we don’t realize it until later…

Being young,.indepandant..single…and healthy….is not easy….this is when most people…think they are the center of the world…The Human being is a very confusing creature…created based on a smart ,self-repairing system…..A smart chip had been planted at the back of his neck…that’s why he can’t see it …but he can feel it …This software enables him to recover most of his parts automatically…to recharge his inner battery.. and recycle all life experiences, turning them into a useful product...a useful implementation…
The fact that this chip can’t recover itself automatically is the shocking reality…The fact that we are part of a bigger system and not the center of the world is the awakening call….The fact that he/she is made of contradiction, flesh and soul…hate and love …sadness and happiness…and above all fear and confidence… Is the secret behind the existence of this life…’you will break down soon….but you are not allowed to do it in your own way’

too many things are running in my head……as I said another ‘check point’.

I took those photos lately..trying desperately to picture the sun...the exact reality of it ..but i failed..by trying so...i was so arrogant and self centerd...at the end i had to use the clouds as a mediator.
What is going on?..where is that smart chip?…will we ever be able to control it ?Or when we do control it ,will we regret doing so ? I think what keeps us going ahead is our search of an answer to this question...which we should never answer…maybe it is better for us.. this way…

Someone wrote:’In the end it will be okay,,,if it is not not okay,,so it is not the end’ ..i find it funny...and silly...